Hello Ladies,
Have you been told that you need to heal your feminine energy? Have you been told that you are too in your masculine? Have you been told that you need to let your Goddess energy or your Feminine energy do the work? Are you tired of hearing those things?
What if, by SOME chance, it wasn’t your feminine energy that needed healing?
What if?
What if it was the MASCULINE side of you that keeps you driving, that seeks recognition, the Masculine that has a voice that is TRYING to be heard, that wants the SUCCESS, MONEY, FAME, and ACKNOWLEDGMENT?
WHAT IF it has nothing to do with your FEMININE at all?
Just recently I made a HUGE discovery while working with my own self…I had been told for so many years…by men and women…that I needed to get more in touch with my feminine energy…that I needed to stop being so masculine and that I needed to be more in my feminine, because men don’t like it when you’re in your masculine.
So I immersed myself in my feminine aspects. I did all of the feminine things I “Thought” I was supposed to do…I even started my own women’s retreats to get more in touch with the FEMININE energy…which was all amazing, wonderful and completely fulfilling…yet I was still left with a feeling that…I still want FAME, FORTUNE, SUCCESS, RECOGNITION. I was still left with an even GREATER feeling of AMBITION, DRIVE, and a DESIRE TO SUCCEED…all very masculine energies…so WHAT AM I MISSING? WHAT, WHAT, WHAT?
Well about a month ago…a friend of mine said to me…there’s something I want to share with you. My friend, a very amazing and powerfully insightful Goddess, Cherie said, “there is this technique…it is simple and we have forgotten it…it is called the “Release Technique“.
Now, I have worked in personal development/self help in one way shape or form for over 20 years…whether it be reading books about it, going to seminars about it, teaching it, watching programs about it, you name it…I’ve done it. I’ve walked on fire, cleared my chakras, done sweat lodges, had my charts done…just about any chart you could possibly get done for yourself, Western astrology, Chinese astrology, astro cartography, Human design…I’ve worked with Spiritual healers, Channels, Mediums, Angel readers, body workers, Africa Priests and Priestesses, Astrologers, Numerologists, NLP masters, Life Coaches, Feng Shui masters, Palm readers, Tarot readers, Shaman’s, Past life healers, Soul tuning experts…you get the picture!
So you see, you name it…I’ve done it, and if I haven’t done it yet, I’m surely not dead and don’t plan on dying anytime soon, so there is time to get to it all…trust me on that one.
But getting back to my friend. Before we had our conversation I was thinking to myself…Marjean…you have every course that personal development has to offer, you have almost every BOOK in self help, spirituality, laws of attraction, abundance, healing etc., heck you even lead courses for Peak Potentials Training, a personal development company! Though you have read a lot of the books, You RARELY listen to the CD’s for the stuff you have…ok, I’ll just be honest…YOU NEVER, listen to any of the courses you have what the hell is that about?
So I sat with that and the answer came…the STILL SMALL voice said…“Simple. It used to be so simple. Where you are from it was never complicated…just simple”.
Hmmm, simple…really? Simple? But isn’t life difficult? Isn’t it supposed to be hard?
“Well, sometimes decisions can be hard, because we are in a human body and there are these things called feelings, and ratio-nal…but really it being hard or challenging are just choice”.
Hmmm, just a choice? I have choice. Yes, I have choice.
Hmmm, I am 44 years old…that adds up to 8. Eight is the number of infinity…but for me in my Chaldean life chart 8 is about “Self Trust”. Having Faith in my “SELF”. Wow. Big light bulb there.
So getting back to simple…Goddess Cherie shared with me about SIMPLE…“The technique is simple Marjean…we’ve simply forgotten it. It isn’t something we haven’t known before…we’ve simply forgotten.” Heavy sigh. “Where is this technique?” I said to her. “Here, check it out here is the website”. So I went to the website and I was intrigued. Intrigued by the name, intrigued by the comments, just simply intrigued.
I had spent YEARS…and I mean YEARS and oodles of cash on cleaning up my past lives; I am a firm believer of past lives…I am known as a Wise One according to Doreen Virtue and one of our roles in this lifetime is to clean up past lives, and in that cleaning there was always something that was happening now, that linked back to then…so I’d hire someone to help me “CLEAN UP” the issue…clear it out. And when I say I have spent oodles of $$$ on this stuff…I mean OODLES. But something inside kept driving me to do it…kept me persistent in the clean up. And then…Cherie spoke. She answered my plea that I had made about a week before our conversation of… “I just want to get back to basics now…to something simple. I know there is something that is simple. I have been through the hard yards, I have done the hard work…I want it to be simple now. Because frankly I am just damn tired!”
So I ordered the product…but when I did I made a commitment…my STILL SMALL voice said to me…
“Marjean…if you are buying one more thing, one more course…I want you to commit to doing it… front to back, no questions, no excuses, no letting it sit on the shelf. Are you committed?”
Whoa…that was a slap. Breathe. Sit. Breathe. Ok. “Yes. I commit. I commit to doing the entire series of CD’s. I will do them all.” There are 10 of them in the series. (You can click here to find out more) THE ABUNDANCE COURSE
So there it was, about a week later, at my door. Point of decision, here it is, staring me in the face. Time to get busy.
Fast forward to today April 2, 2009.
I have had the most profound insights because of this technique. I have discovered things from THIS lifetime that had not yet been cleaned up. I have since discovered the reason my relationship with my current husband was showing up as it was. I discovered an even bigger truth behind it and the service that we are being to each other on the highest level. I have uncovered that it indeed was NOT my feminine that needed the healing, but my masculine! My Shaman told me a few months ago…“All of the women around you are in their masculine”. At the time I could see it, now I see WHY it is that way! We’ve been told all of our lives, “Be a girl, you have to STOP being so masculine”.
Well, what I really got through this process was not that I needed to HEAL my feminine…my feminine is my feminine…it hasn’t been allowed to shine…because the MASCULINE part of me is DYING for attention…it wants recognition…it wants all of the masculine things that is has been seeking…THIS is where the healing needs to be. This is the aspect of me that needs the attention right now. That was what was being reflected to me by my husband…this is the part of you that needs to be healed…it is right in your face, right in your house, right in your bed…laying next to you each night! HELLOOOOOOOO! Oh my god! “Yes?” Yes what? “You called?”
Oh, yes…hmm, I did. The STILL SMALL voice…the one I have ignored. “Yes, that one. The one that keeps whispering to you, but you don’t like to just be still and listen. You’ve been so caught up in I have to do this, I have to do that, I have to create something to help take the pressure off of my husband…I have to run myself into the ground because my EGO tells me so”. I hear you. I hear you, loud and clear.
The insights have been many, they have come in waves. I am so absolutely grateful. I am so filled up. I am so much more at peace. I am so much more allowing. I can just let go. I can focus on my joy, what makes me happy. I can let go of all of the things about my dad that I thought would create a dis-connect from him. He died in 2005. I thought I was complete. Last week he informed me himself that I wasn’t. I was afraid to let the aspects of myself that were so like my dad go because I thought I would lose my connection with him. He told me otherwise…he said point blank,
“Baby, you are holding on too tight. I have more insight and more resources to help you now than I ever did when I was alive. Let go of the beliefs that bind you to the way I operated. I didn’t raise you to live my life…I raised you to live yours…Go live it! I will always be here, but I can’t do my work if you won’t let me go. I know you are a little scared, I know. But I ask you to trust me…trust me baby…I have never steered you wrong. “
“You’re right Pops…you have never steered me wrong. I adopted beliefs and patterns because I thought those were right. Not that any of it was wrong, it has all gotten me to where I am today and I am grateful. I now know why I did what I did. It is so liberating to know the core. You were my hero and I wanted to be like you. I know you didn’t raise me to be entirely like you…but to give me examples of things that work and things that don’t work. The lessons have been plenty and plentiful. I release all of the things that don’t work for me and allow those aspects of you that do work to remain. Thank you for those gifts.”
“You’re welcome baby…now I gotta go…I got places to go, people to see and magic to make! But I’ll be back before you even know I’m gone. That’s just how things work on this side. It’s your time baby…it’s your time. Over and out.”
Heavy sigh. My dad…man did he have a sense of humor when he was alive…and even more so now that he isn’t!
Until next time…may the magic of life sprinkle on yours.
In love and abundance,
Marjean Holden
If you would like more information or assistance in your life I have great resources that you can access at www.marjeanholden.com or if this article has given you any insights I’d love to hear from you.
